Oh yeah baby...

Thanks Kyla...I love them!

So Kyla my lil star bought me and sent me two t-shirts...I love them,,,I will rock them with pride! Especially the Tai Ker one...gotta enjoy it...thank you so much my darling, I owe you one!

PoPo la MaMa food kicks ass...

This new free mag kicks ass...got it form the HP store...note that I take up double tables at the restraunt.

David a while back colouring in one of the free colouring pictures at PoPo La MaMa...Sakiko even put it up! Did not get a pic though...

David`s final picture...ahhh good stuff!

Me...

So...haaaa...my heads hurts, I am over worked right now although there is such love around me I am grateful for it. Life...I have looked over my blog recently...well some parts, other parts are painful to look at...but this blog is my life...well of sorts anyway. It`s been an incredible journey thus far..full of love, hope, dreams, heartache, fun, laughter, depression, and tears.

Life as I have stated thousands of times over this blog really is a funny thing. Sometimes I look at myself and think how in the world did I get here...I think about all the sweat and tears of so many people to get here...I am here in Japan living a life which in many senses is a dream and at present at times a nightmare, this is what I want, this is what I chose.

I will never forget though the sacrifices I made to come here, all the sacrifices others made so that I could come here...when I look at all the lessons I have learnt what others have taught me it makes me feel so alive. So many people have given me so much and I am the passionate person today because of them. I will never stop thanking them and I will never stop loving them no matter what happens.

From England to Sih Dah, finding friendship and love which will last a lifetime, finding a girl I love, back to England where my family is, once again back to Taiwan with a new perspective...then Malaysia, Hong Kong, Japan...back to England for a reality check...finally Japan again...another chance...another life...another future...

On a different note a certain Mr Alby is coming very soon...yes I am excited and yes my place is a dump. Must clean soon! See you soon Bruv...

Right enough blabbing, I have put pictures up and its about friggin time too...of the prez in Urahara and nights out with zee boys and also of Po Po la Ma Ma which is my regular haunt these days, great Italian Food! These have been long overdue, check them out ok!?

Jua and a proud daddy...

Dickie`s son...Jua!

Well congrats are in order for the next big thing in football...Jua! HAHAHA...Dickie the top manager himself now has a son...a very BIG son...the kid is HUGE, no kiddin. Congrats mate, the best to you and Nao-chan and of course Jua right now the lil man...soon to be HUGE ass bloke in the future.

Good luck Jua, grow up and be a good boy for your mummy and daddy, don`t get up to too much mischief and PLEASE don`t play for City, you dad will go nuts! Arsenal will be ok...*wink* *wink*

David 2006...my friends are laughing at my mullet...I like mullets!

Hazy days...

So this marks a full week...how time does go by fast...it scares me...we all face the time and see it as nothing. I have heard many people use the phrase "times change, people change" ...I used to believe in this once but I believe it no longer. Call me naive but a part of me will never change, not after what I have seen and done and felt.

So on the day after I headed to play some pool with Julz, he whipped my ass and became known as Mr Cleanup (long story) although I think I won two games through sheer luck. I miss my pool days in smoky pool hall in Taipei...afterwards a Izakaya called us and much sad filled alcohol was consumed and alot of random banter from the Julz meister. Thanks Mr!

Last night saw us head to another Izakaya called Arigatos where the lovely Yuka served us drinks and food. Dickie, Julz, Luke the stud, Joe and me were there and later the lovely Kayo and her friend also called Yuka came down for a drink. I had way too much and staggered home whilst they continued on the rampage. WAHAHA!

Days have been long and reflective, people, friends and family have gathered around me and shown such support...I appreciate it beyond words my darlings...I feel an emptiness all surrounding me at times, its like finding and realising a home yet it feels as unreal as anything one can ever experience.

May you all take care of yourselves out there my darlings, take care of each other, thanks for all your support and words of understanding and most of all thanks for listening.


Faith, Love, Hope, Understanding and a smile are all we need in this life.

Arigatos...Julz, Dickie, David (completely hammered), Kayo, Yuka, Luke the puke and big Joe....plus random woman in the background who apparently only serves foreigners!

Luke and Joe...beer and cigars...yes Joe it was better than powdered semen...(long story!)

Suddenly there were ladies...

Julz and Dickie enjoying cigars...as MEN!

Luke and Joe...rude rude...

Kayo and yuka...tadah!

Yuka, Luke and Joe...ahhh singing away the blues...

Dickie and Julz...now thats love!

The final group...yes the random guy in the front is a staff member...yes we were all horribly drunk...

Luke`s party trip before he exited the Arigatos with Yka...Wink Wink!

When will the pain and sorrow end...

"I can think of younger days when living for my life
Was everything a man could want to do.
I could never see tomorrow, but I was never told about the sorrow.

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?
How can you mend a this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again."

"Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last [2] years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time..."

"May time stand still for us - David" ...it stood still for a while...and I will cherish it forever.

I wonder...

I wonder if you really truly understand what you did?


I wonder if it hurts you as much as it hurts me?


I wonder why you were not strong enough?


I wonder if you miss holding me?


I wonder if you will remember Qing Tian?


I wonder if time can really heal what I feel?


I wonder if you know that all I saw in your eyes on that last night was stubborness and nothing else?


I wonder why we were not strong enough together?


I wonder if you will understand me one day?


I wonder where it all went wrong?


I wonder how you will continue in your life?


I wonder if you know that you made this decision by yourself?




I KNOW I will love you for the rest of my life.

The beginning or the end?

My man Banksy destroying popular culture...

A kid showed some love and creativity...here is the result...

Number Nine...meets Clash inspired Mickey...

Propaganda...NBHD 3204 style...

A time of silly Kung Fu films...

Rock you don`t stop...the time of two revolutionary concepts...

The doctor met a graph artist who inspired a shoe...

When street became a lifestyle...

The only jeans to wear...

It has come full circle...

When Nike met its real creator...

His name was...

The Hope Street Sessions...

Who wants a toy...?

Porter x HF...

Hideouts...

My Generation...

Pictures that represent my generation...look, feel, touch, think, cry...