Has it been that long...

Well this is quite a surprise...I cannot believe I have not posted in so long. I think the last 5-6 weeks have been out of control for me. I have not really felt like I am in a specific frame of mind or place...am I actually making sense!? HAHAHA... I guess what I am saying is I guess I've been cruising through life enjoying and seeing everyday for what it is.

I feel lately this has been brought to an abrupt halt, I sense it when I wake up every day, when I board the bus in the morning, during my time at school and before I sleep at night. The end of an era has come and many if not all my friends including my darling have left this humid city never to return. We all knew this day would come it was inevitable and well...just a part of life however nothing can really prepare you for it.

I have been looking at my future...where does it really lie? Do I return 'home' to the U.K. where my family are and do what my sister refers to as 'settling down' or do I follow my heart to Japan and stay in Asia?

Life tires me with all its complex questions...I feel torn apart I guess in that one has to have responsibilities in life, one has to settle down and find a path to a good and prosperous career...but when do people stop to listen to their heart and see life and time for what it really is? Some may say that this is too unrealistic, overly romantic or even naive however I have come to realise more and more that I want to fight for what I want and love, I refuse to be in a position in 10, 20 or 50 years time and say...

"you know what, I really regret not doing that"

Its simple but true, life is too short for regrets or the many simple squabbles we have over life and love.

We all have to be stronger in life and have faith in each other and our loved ones.